September 11, 2019 (232.4)

Hello friends,

I am not giving up.  Yes, I am going backwards.  Yes I am struggling, but I am not going to give up.  So my car broke down and I bargained with God.  He helped me out, but it was so crazy, this morning I wanted to go back to my old routines.  Or when I found out, I wanted to go back to my old habits.  I want to say I am sorry God.  I hear you.  I want to honor you and keep the part on my end.

September 11, a really important day not to focus on myself but to focus on others.  God, how can I serve you today?  How can I change?

This week, my goal is not to binge eat. To stay within my points. Not to get on the scale until 9/18/2019 (a week from today).  Not to spend money. 

God I can do this, I will do this, I made a promise, I want to keep it with you.

I am going to do Weight Watchers and stick with it.  I can do all things through Christ who Strengthens me. Ask and it will be given.

Today I am going to work hard at work and at Noon I am going to go buy a pop for my buddies here at work.  I am going to try to get the focus off me.

August 31, 2019 (230.2)

I am not giving up.  That is going to be my motto.  This week it is my goal not to binge eat.  Not to go over too many calories and walk an hour a day.  That is it.  I am going to try to not get on the scale until my next Doctor's visit which is on the 12 of November of this year.

I had a great weekend.  Went to Dublin, Ohio with my friend and saw some really great sculptures.  I went home and spent Labor Day Weekend with my family.  It was a good weekend.  I bought 3 skirts that I like very much. 

Now back to business.  One week, no getting on the scale and no binge eating. 

August 24, 2019 (225.9)

So, where do I begin?

I had a great day Saturday.  I went to Downtown Columbus with my friend Tabby and her baby girl Evie.  We went and saw a Joyce Meyer Conference. I had so much fun.  I really want to go back and listen to her again if I get the chance.

I like Columbus.  It is a cool city, not as cool as Pittsburgh but cool!

Sunday I drove to see my family.  I had a really late start because my sleeping is off.  I want to sleep in and don't want to get up and stay up really late at night.  I used to get up everyday between 4 and 5 A.M. and now I can barely get out of bed at 6 A.M .

I am posting this late.

Now about my weight. I know I am only down 0.2 but I am going to praise God for that 0.2.  It was a rough week. My eating was not good and I was getting on the scale even though I told myself I wouldn't.

If it take me 4 years to lose then, then let it take 4 years. I am going to trust God in the process.  In his timing.

I think going to the conference opened up my eyes to the Lord even more.  She talked about the apostle Paul, and not once did he ask to be set free or break his chains. He asked for strength and what the Lord wanted from him.  He prayed for his loved ones and put the Lord first.

She also said we need to study the word.  I need to study the word.  I need to win this battle before me.  I am a work in progress.  I want to tell God I am sorry for being so self centered.  I want to let go.

Here is to another week.  Goals for this week, get into the word, don't get on the scale again until Saturday, stick to the eating plan, don't go over!  Freedom, TRUST God with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding.

August 17, 2019 (226.1)

August 17, 2019

So I got on the scale today and it said 226.1  Now I know that is heavy but just 3 weeks ago I was at 234.0.  It is not a shock to me,  I knew my weight was creeping up and I am so thankful I went down to 226.1.  

Yesterday I went for a walk to my local Rite Aide, to pick up my prescriptions.  It is 1.5 miles there and 1.5 miles back.  The cool thing is that I can take my blood pressure.  It was 115/77 with no blood pressure medicine, I have been fortunate not to be on them at this time, but my pulse was high.  It was 106 and High is 100.  On my way back, I was passed by this woman jogger.  She was so impressive.  I prayed to God, and told him I want to be in that shape.

My entire life I struggled with weight.  Every since I was a little girl and I don't want too anymore.  So when God got me up at 3 am this morning and after I did my devotion, I worked out...  I stayed on track with my eating and so far I planned this weekend's food.  Monday I will plan the entire week.  My goal is not to get on the scale until next Saturday, my weigh in day.  

I have lost 1,000 pounds over the course of my life and gained back 2,000 more.  This next year I am going to do this.  My goal weight is 130 and I want to be in shape physically.  I listened to a pod cast in which they say you lose weight in the kitchen and you feel great at the gym.  Meaning 80% of it is your eating, and only 20% is your workouts.  Here We Go!

Starting Weight 226.1    Goal Weight 130